That weird Feeling

That Weird Feeling….

Weird, isn’t it? how we catch these weird feelings for somehow whom we have just met. Sometimes people come in our lives just to flourish it, like an angel, it may sound flimsy but it’s true. That one person who suddenly appears from thin air somehow has all the solutions which you were struggling to find out for so many years. He/she just appears and everything seems happy-ish, everything more than just k. I’m not saying it’s a compulsion that you’ll like that person initially but as time goes by, one day you’ll get up and recall all the things they have told you that day those talks would actually make sense and when that person would be far gone, from your sight, from your reach, from your thoughts. I’m not saying physically but emotionally. It isn’t always necessary to feel pain physically. Some distortions in your conscious, in your mind, tear you down more than a mangled organ, you know that better!So. here’s a piece of writing, of what I felt when I met that person, 

“It’s weird, yes it’s weird,

How someone who’s a stranger suddenly becomes dear,

It’s been just a day since my heartfelt pain,

How can my heart forget that pain?

This isn’t correct!! This this isn’t correct;

I know I should move on,

I know I should move on,

But I know I’m not ready to move on,

Then why does it feel different,

The way he touches,

The way he cares,

The way he looks at me,

The way I feel,

The way he talks! ‘Ugh’

No! No! I shouldn’t be thinking so much,

No! No! I shouldn’t be thinking so much,

While I feel this is too much;

I’ve heard life only owes you 2 odds,

I’ve heard life only owes you 2 odds,

Whilst, I’ve botched all of my odds,

I’m afraid of slipping into the pain,

I’m afraid of slipping into the pain,

I can’t afford to replenish it again;

I know life is tough and we love once,

Yet the more I resist him,

The more I wish to know him,

The more I’m drawn towards him,

The more I’m scared to look into his eyes,

The more I’m immersed in him;

“ALAS! HE ACTUALLY FANCIES ME”

That touches tickles like butterflies in my stomach,

Like the sky touches the cool breeze;

It’s weird how instantly I have these feelings for a guy I’ve barely known…

Like some ray of sunshine hitting my darkness……”

I hope you get the bliss of this feeling, though I could express mine through words and you may have felt it a bit but when you actually go through it trust me it feels magical. You would feel as if you’re the highness of the world and when that happens, please don’t run away from it, enjoy it! No moment lasts forever but it always lasts as memory living every day within you. And when you recall it there would always be a small smile on your face which would make you feel happy-ish. After all, we all are trying to find it but it actually lies within us. What makes you feel happy is a form of happiness beneath you. These small-small feelings which we go through don’t avoid them they’re a part of life you wouldn’t wish to neglect and then regret later.

Grab them and indulge yourself thoroughly. Make as many memories as you can.

Until then be happy and make others happy. Au revoir!  

~R. Surve


©A. Utekar